Hi everyone. It’s me again. I know I haven’t posted anything substantial in a while, but I thought I’d do something for the new year. I have no clue how many people actually read my writing, but I guess it’s more for me (not to be selfish or anything). However, I don’t know, it’d be nice to know that these actually mean something to someone else besides myself. Maybe that’s just wishful thinking, whatever.
Anyway, looking back on this year, I realize that it’s been crazy. So much has happened. Every new year, most people create their new year’s resolutions. Although I do not really come up with a very concrete list things for the new year, I do usually have some goals, however abstract.
I hear most people say things like, “This past year has been great; hopefully the next will be better.” I am not going to lie. For me, this past year has been filled with failures and disappointment. I have many regrets and things I wish I could do over. But what can I do? After looking back many times and tearing myself up, I can only keep moving forward. Perhaps it’s a bit cliché, but really, it’s all I can do.
However, intertwined in my regrets are many fond memories. Old friends, new friends, old experiences, new experiences, so much has changed, especially with the transition into college. Right now, I truly am blind as to what the future holds. It is a bit frightening approaching life this way, but I suppose that is how I must live it for the time being. Hopefully something good will come out of all this.
I hope I can do something this new year. I hope I can become someone worth becoming. I hope I can change the world in some small way at least. I hope I can touch someone’s life. I hope I can live a life that is pleasing to God. I hope I can be who I am supposed to be. But all this must start with a year, a week, a day, only a small moment. That is where it begins.
I just hope that I will not let the world pass me by as I stand watching complacently on the sidewalk. Many times this past year, I have felt like this, and it has frightened me. One of my worst fears is leaving this world without having done something, anything.
Some might just dismiss this as blissful ignorance, but this is my driving force, the fuel for my passion. I watched The Blind Side today, and it has called me to action. It is an incredible story. Is this just another thing that will eventually die off? Maybe. But I hope I remember it.
A new year. A new day. A brand new chance for something great. I hope we all take advantage of this, and I hope that this new year is filled with many opportunities to be human, to breathe in the fresh air, to take in the beautiful sights, to enjoy every minute of life and not let it pass by without a thought.
I would like to thank all of my friends and family for being who they are. I know that I am far from being the most attentive or the most kind or the most caring or even a good person. I apologize and thank you for dealing with me, for putting up with who I am. I hope that I will do better. I hope this means something.
So I know this is a seriously late comment, but well I’m commenting anyways because I read (when I remember, which you should remind me more often), but that’s besides the point.
Looking back on the last year, things might have been rough, and I hope 2010 already is or will be much better than the year before.
Hey, life is too short to regret the little things. You have a lot of time ahead of you to do whatever you want. The future may be blind, but God is with you every single step of the way. Sometimes it’s the surprises in life that we never see coming that make the road so worthwhile.
As for leaving the world without leaving anything behind. Every single person who’s life you’ve been in even for a split moment, you’ve altered in some way whether it is hugely significant or not. I’ll tell you this now, you sure have changed mine.
It isn’t putting up with you for who you are. I’m sure everyone, including me, loves you for who you are because you’re a great friend and a great person.
You are still young and full of potential. Just make sure you visit as many potential paths as you can. There is nothing wrong with trying something and failing. Use the lessons learned from those failures when you go on other paths. No regrets if you try and fail. You will learn that the only real regret is if you had the opportunity offered to you and did not take it.
Of course, act with prudence and God’s wisdom and guidance.
Enjoy life and friends. Time and age will catch up with you before you know it.